My next school of thought is intertwined with my own theory on “knowing thy self” on all planes of realities. But more specifically, the mental plane which encircles in and around my individual existence. My thoughts use to be a hidden space occupied by only me, at least I assumed so. As if I’m a loner on earth, unseeing behind the veil because of every embedded distraction of today. With the beautiful polarity of hate and love in life, here I continue to heal and ascend in mind. The universe tends to communicate the definite opposite of the impression to doubt myself almost simultaneously on this lightened path, for when daily I unknowingly did so. My prior knowledge in regards to being conscious of fear and or judgment from within began at a very young age, probably not any different from anyone else here.
Look at our thoughts as such in a way, that nothing inhabits them but only time or space as being mental images. The cause to our metal chatter is because we accept a yesterday, a today, and a tomorrow. There is no power in them, nor any matter, there is no law in them, nor any source-they are just shadows. So, then, why are so many of us tormented by mental images?
Mental health in today’s society it looked at as a negative connotation, when the truth is that we all need healing. Suppressing masked emotions can carry from generation-to generation if they aren’t expressed then released properly. Furthermore, depression affects more than 15milion Americans today. Self-doubt, low spirits, and feelings of despair takes on its own form of reality from within, doubting self unconsciously. While in this state of mind, and after so long of this self-hate, we become dependent on false realities, such as harmful foods, drugs, sex and etc. because of our unresolved issues. I know that I, for one, have tried to block out many images that had enabled the destitution to care for self-first. Sometimes these images constitute man-made rules, theories, and punishment attached to them. A few may disturb or frighten us, bear witness to disease, and/or accidents, but does that bestow them with authority?
We allow for these pictures to continuously occupy our mental space because we are judging them. While creating reality, all is mental, and all areas of life changes with mental thought. When we are thinking and use one’s common sense or when we are regarding anything as person or thing, we are in the mental state of consciousness. Consider that most people have around fifty thousand separate thoughts each day, many of them on the same topic. Due to this, its lower rate of occurrence is expressed by the linear thinking of the logical mind. The purpose of the mental body is meant to fulfill duties in taking up the universal truths, extending it from the plane of spiritual body and fusing them with the logical mind.
While only in the spiritual realm we can transcend mind. The mastery that comes to us in this manner from the spiritual plane of our existence conveys itself in the form of intuition and unforeseen insights, such as images or sounds that are then transmuted into verbal thoughts.
Unfortunately, many of us are accustomed to being convinced by what we only grasp with our physical senses is real, ignoring this vital aspect of ourselves, the all-knowing higher-self. The higher self is the real you, the soul consciousness. It’s the part of us that animates us with inspiration, guides us with intuition, and teaches through insight. It links us with pure Divine Being while acknowledging the source and goal of our being and the purpose of our lives. Always, we are fastened in unity. In reality in consciousness, there is no detachment.
A bit later on my path, I’ve accepted that we’re all more than physical beings, having this physical awareness.
As a child, I often considered the ability to think and/or read a book silently from within without the involvement of any special instructions from those around me. There was this voice that sounded like me, as I was always reading a book, billboards, closed-captions, Jet magazines, etc. Or when surprisingly intuition answered a question correctly in class related to numbers, I thought that I was just lucky in that way. For instance, in my sixth grade health course, the teacher randomly had asked me how many bones were in the human body. Not knowing how to respond, nervously, I blurted out the correct number, 206. In her disbelief, she again shot another question my way, one unrelated to figures. Unfortunately, the attempt to precisely respond had failed in backing me up that next round. While still today small bits of being in tuned to numbers still exist around me on different levels.
For me, life is a study of mastering self, and while numbers have always been highlighted on my journey, I now have the sense to understand their meanings. So, to finally connect this entire build together regarding mentalism and knowing your higher self, this notion brings me to a point of no return. On this journey when the barriers of fear were lifted away by Spirit at a significant time in my life, a noteworthy event took place within myself.
The constant evaluation of this incident seemed to always stimulate awareness of fear from within a contorted space in time. When I was a toddler, I can still recall today sitting on one of my older brother’s lower bunk bed pondering if the molestation should be occurring while a pedophile had laughed and played with my brothers outside of our apartments on S Hawkins Ave. in Akron, OH.
The very first time that my mind had departed from fear, and then began to question the years of the reoccurring sexual abuse was the start to a new awakening from within. The abuse was intolerable now because I was a little older in age and could solve problems independently and think more rationally at this particular time in my life. The thought process prior to my awakening was to protect my family’s interest in unity because it had been presently dispirited. By doing so, the pain of going unnoticed from the abuse threw me into the darkest dungeon for many years. I was eight years old when I received this message to live above fear. Right away, I knew that it was an answer from whom I had called “GOD” at the moment, because in the way that the message was instantaneously present as I challenged this fear by provoking thought.
On the way over to a family member’s apartment where I knew that the years of reoccurring child molestation would continue, sitting in the back seat of mom’s 89’ Nissan Sentra, I felt wretched from this premonition. Instead of leaping out of the car, which my body felt like pursuing, or crying out in anguish which would distract my mom from going to her job, I surprised myself and went within for guidance. Asking the Divine Creator when will this abuse end, at once the number 8 had appeared into my mind’s eye. I can still recall today, the process by which I had a conversation with my Higher Self. It was the beginning stages into my own personal Spirituality, Ase’. After receiving this message in response from within, I began to ponder on this number eight. In my resurrection, the number eight was my present age in the now, and I remember feeling revived from this acknowledgment afterward.
I deadened the sexual abuse that very moment from both pedophiles who were aligned on my earlier path as a child. Due to me wanting the change and hearing my Higher Self, I was able to find my voice on that specific day, time, and space in the back seat of mom’s vehicle. Subsequently, challenges with self followed me, where I had indulged into false realities as a teenager and so on. I knew that “GOD” spoke within me that day, but I had allowed anger to manifest the comforts of being a victim, in search for outside tools to block my visual images of being one as a child. While in my twenties taking varies of writing courses, I was never able to articulate this particular moment into a narrative because my mind was still cultivated in fear of self. Now, I am able to express myself fully because of the internal work that I continue to do within daily. The enlightened one, where I can change my own realities by mastering mental alchemy is a skill that my ancestors from Khemet was proficient in. There’s so much more that I can say about my transition in this life so far!
The human being does not solely grow older every day and achieve additional skills and experiences, its development also takes place on the authority of a special mental and spiritual cycle. Certain stages of development can only be perceived to an optimal degree when carried out at a specific phase of life. Ase’
My dearest mother had worked days, evenings, and nights for as long as I can remember due to the constant, mandatory changes with the work at her job for 35 years! She could easily max 60 work hours/wk or more in order to provide for her three children. I give thanks to my mother’s siblings and friends for having a hand in our upbringing. If my parents “would’ve known better, then they would’ve did better”, by with the tools that was given to them and independently established by them, I am grateful to still have my parents in this physical plane of existence, and to be a part of their ancestry lineage that is thriving today.
☤”Your Reality in Balance begins at the very moment when work is placed forth by your intent to grow and change for the betterment of self, aiding in the improvement of mankind! Balance & Peace…”
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In her blogs, she enjoys writing inspirational tips on Holistic Health, Self-Care, Afrikan Spirituality, and Sexual Abuse Awareness. She also loves to travel, fitness, reading, and creating new vegan recipes.